Posted in Front Page

Stress is the number one common killer and it makes the final steps to death painful and grumpy. Directing just one step and little by little you might notice how invigorating your body feels existing fully alive.

My stress felt natural until I took my body outside and stood myself in the breeze. Grazing on greens and sticking clean, my body is becoming energy effective.

I’ve been setting sights on Just Dance. Currently I’m training my body on a 2021 set. My only obligation is one dance a day, that one dance turns to two after my ears hear those infectious beats. My steps start bouncing while I’m bumping to the Queen vibes on my mind.

Remember to breathe, sit up straight, and take pride in the beautiful contraption you’re strapped with.

Calm stress and exist better

Love you forever, MissyX

Posted in ADHD, Streaming

Not Worth my Time

I often get suggestions how I can improve my streaming career, the XYZ formula of how to make it big in the business. Which says to me, I have potential and it’s great that my audience is eager for me to succeed. The thing is I measure success differently.

ADHD is a reality that poses significant challenges. Habits of life must be approached differently to manage stress and maintain mental stability. Becoming aware of how our bodies react and how to respond measures how successful our days will be. It’s not always predictable and unless we are afforded the freedom to focus, chances are not in our favor for succeeding.

About me

I used to work in the machine, grinding away for a big pay day, then I’d indulge in everything my heart desired, especially when it was on fire from a hard week. I could lend a hand to a friend, I could afford to not worry about my income, and coming home felt SAFE because I knew it was secure. All the comforts I needed as long as I suffocated on the cog.

I understand

I recognize the fear snarling near me with memories of indignities I’ve laid to rest.

With a long term work injury, I was fired. I gave up a lot of conveniences that often left me embarrassed. My nightmares go back there, but times are different now.

You don’t realize the stress is overcoming you, until you’re choking on the mistakes you’ve made to cope through another day. You forget how much time has passed until you look back at all the days you forgot. You weren’t there, because the stress took the BEST there was to give.

What’s important to me

To be aware of where I am and what’s important when I get locked in my choices. Is an important practice because routines make DREAMS happen. Coping conveniently is highly encouraged in the modern world and will ultimately shorten my lifespan, if I’m not mindful of how to value my existence.

Diseases of the heart are the most common killer, ailments will creep up on me as I reach my final stages, if I do as I am told to fit in perfectly.

I can trust in change with a little patience. I can trust I’ll find my way and everything will be okay as long as I am respecting my limitations.

Assume the best of the people around you because we all similarly want the best experiences.

There is an existence where you can become the spitting image of the one you know yourself to be.

Be free

I love you always,


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Posted in Streaming

Don’t Touch my Shit

I’ve been on an obsessive course with my work lately, like I don’t even think I’m doing this anymore. My mind is on rapid fire with solutions and inspiration it’s nuts. I went from the peek of anxiety and insecurity to a steady runners high going further than I could have ever imagined I’d go. I value my work because I’ve been through what it hurt to get here.

I respect and admire the labor and dedication. I’m relieved that the countless years I spent weren’t in vain and now I can feel proud to claim the name. It doesn’t all come from me though. I was lead here by people who respected and cared for their craft who showed me the way.

There is no inspiration in a dark room and I know I’m apart of this process. I’m so excited to see what comes next. Who expands or alters the way the future is laid for me to play in.

Go ahead and spin that shit. I have fledged unyielding faith in my abilities, even if the requirement is way too far for me to see what’s going to be needed of me.

I hope you do the same with courage when you feel you aren’t original enough. I hope you don’t fear that someone will take all that’s good of you. I hope you understand that its really hard to comprehend just how much love there is in the world.

I hope you forgive me for not overextending myself to complete all my commitments in a timely manner. I hope you trust in my care for you that I will see through anything that I have guaranteed you. I hope you give me the benefit of the doubt when my head is clouded and it sounds like I farted on cam, because that won’t EVER be apart of the jam.

Yes, I need some sleep, I know that. I’m telling you, this isn’t me anymore, I’ve only been sitting here an hour. My priorities are to seeing a dreams through. These marathon streams have been very good for helping me get out of bed and get ready every day instead of lounging around acting like a clown and getting nothing accomplished. You keep me sharp while I keep myself paced. I just want to say, thanks for playing your part. You are always in my heart


Posted in ADHD

The Inconsistency of ADHD

Seeing is believing and luckily for me, my actions have presented magical second chances when everything turns out right from time to time.

Fortunately for me, first chances were forgiven after failing to provide expected provisions, wasting precious time of all those anticipating minds invested in the vision of perfection.

Commonly for me, all who know me become concerned when they’ve heard I’ve back skirted and hurt my chances to rise about my ADHD circumstances.

That’s the tragedy of conformity, those who don’t know me commonly lay their perception to rest in all they know best with me as the pest against common practices.

The reality of mental ability is it’s capability of perceiving a believable world where I’m not the hurt hurling villain but a spirited sprite who lives on the bright side.

An Adhd nervous system is interest based, that’s where the hyper focus plays.

Exist confidently in a favorable reality

Thank you for giving me another day of support and faith. Statically, my existence is projected to be a burden. Your efforts contribute to me not hurting for living from time to time in social obscurity.

Cheers to our legacy, MissyX

Posted in Struggles

ADHD Parenting ADHD

Raising a family with sensitivities is exhausting af. It’s the finest love you can come across with deep sentiments and so much palpable energy that left untethered, is a lot to handle.

It can be done by anyone but coming out with a healthy mindset isn’t likely. When I was growing up, as an undiagnosed Adhd teen, force was used as the primary disciplinary measure. Even though it proved to be ineffective, there really wasn’t any time to be sensitive and patient.

With my sincerest hope, I had wanted to do better as a parent but quickly I saw how managing multiple lives on top of my own left little room for me.

Fast forward to a stronger day. I’ve learned modeling behavior is very effective, along with reverse psychology, distractions, and direct eye contact. Little adjustments and having a flexible schedule helps to give that time to patience.

I’m thankful my life is hard. I wouldn’t have been compassionate if I hadn’t felt it when I deserved it the least. I wouldn’t have been able to comprehend this kind of fulfillment and peace if I hadn’t been deprived of it. I wouldn’t have this ambition if I hadn’t felt the abundance of time and the value of overcoming struggle.

I wouldn’t love my life if I hadn’t realized it’s all just an experience I don’t lead but direct in.

Thank you for taking this time out to hear my story. I appreciate your attention, patience, and support in making this experience possible.


You are welcome to join my Discord and create some memories with me if you would like a friend