Posted in ADHD

The Inconsistency of ADHD

Seeing is believing and luckily for me, my actions have presented magical second chances when everything turns out right from time to time.

Fortunately for me, first chances were forgiven after failing to provide expected provisions, wasting precious time of all those anticipating minds invested in the vision of perfection.

Commonly for me, all who know me become concerned when they’ve heard I’ve back skirted and hurt my chances to rise about my ADHD circumstances.

That’s the tragedy of conformity, those who don’t know me commonly lay their perception to rest in all they know best with me as the pest against common practices.

The reality of mental ability is it’s capability of perceiving a believable world where I’m not the hurt hurling villain but a spirited sprite who lives on the bright side.

An Adhd nervous system is interest based, that’s where the hyper focus plays.

Exist confidently in a favorable reality

Thank you for giving me another day of support and faith. Statically, my existence is projected to be a burden. Your efforts contribute to me not hurting for living from time to time in social obscurity.

Cheers to our legacy, MissyX

Posted in ADHD, Streaming

Not Worth my Time

I often get suggestions how I can improve my streaming career, the XYZ formula of how to make it big in the business. Which says to me, I have potential and it’s great that my audience is eager for me to succeed. The thing is I measure success differently.

ADHD is a reality that poses significant challenges. Habits of life must be approached differently to manage stress and maintain mental stability. Becoming aware of how our bodies react and how to respond measures how successful our days will be. It’s not always predictable and unless we are afforded the freedom to focus, chances are not in our favor for succeeding.

About me

I used to work in the machine, grinding away for a big pay day, then I’d indulge in everything my heart desired, especially when it was on fire from a hard week. I could lend a hand to a friend, I could afford to not worry about my income, and coming home felt SAFE because I knew it was secure. All the comforts I needed as long as I suffocated on the cog.

I understand

I recognize the fear snarling near me with memories of indignities I’ve laid to rest.

With a long term work injury, I was fired. I gave up a lot of conveniences that often left me embarrassed. My nightmares go back there, but times are different now.

You don’t realize the stress is overcoming you, until you’re choking on the mistakes you’ve made to cope through another day. You forget how much time has passed until you look back at all the days you forgot. You weren’t there, because the stress took the BEST there was to give.

What’s important to me

To be aware of where I am and what’s important when I get locked in my choices. Is an important practice because routines make DREAMS happen. Coping conveniently is highly encouraged in the modern world and will ultimately shorten my lifespan, if I’m not mindful of how to value my existence.

Diseases of the heart are the most common killer, ailments will creep up on me as I reach my final stages, if I do as I am told to fit in perfectly.

I can trust in change with a little patience. I can trust I’ll find my way and everything will be okay as long as I am respecting my limitations.

Assume the best of the people around you because we all similarly want the best experiences.

There is an existence where you can become the spitting image of the one you know yourself to be.

Be free

I love you always,


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Posted in Struggles

ADHD Parenting ADHD

Raising a family with sensitivities is exhausting af. It’s the finest love you can come across with deep sentiments and so much palpable energy that left untethered, is a lot to handle.

It can be done by anyone but coming out with a healthy mindset isn’t likely. When I was growing up, as an undiagnosed Adhd teen, force was used as the primary disciplinary measure. Even though it proved to be ineffective, there really wasn’t any time to be sensitive and patient.

With my sincerest hope, I had wanted to do better as a parent but quickly I saw how managing multiple lives on top of my own left little room for me.

Fast forward to a stronger day. I’ve learned modeling behavior is very effective, along with reverse psychology, distractions, and direct eye contact. Little adjustments and having a flexible schedule helps to give that time to patience.

I’m thankful my life is hard. I wouldn’t have been compassionate if I hadn’t felt it when I deserved it the least. I wouldn’t have been able to comprehend this kind of fulfillment and peace if I hadn’t been deprived of it. I wouldn’t have this ambition if I hadn’t felt the abundance of time and the value of overcoming struggle.

I wouldn’t love my life if I hadn’t realized it’s all just an experience I don’t lead but direct in.

Thank you for taking this time out to hear my story. I appreciate your attention, patience, and support in making this experience possible.


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